deep and dirty

roots

deep roots

deep insecurity

non-security

feelings/emotions of a/an ____________ being

INTENSE EMOTION

INTENSE FEELING

hurt enveloped (in) pushed down until rooted

NO PLACE to go

takes it's residues of pain and pursues

other ways to

RELEASE this- self hate- hurt of a PAST DAY

hurt of a negligence

stupidity filling these bones

cowardness overtakes all knowing

childishness manipulated to the highest extent

leaving stains of scorn and resentment

set into the soul

leaving this man completely unwhole

not knowing how to restore

turning to all sorts of SUBSTITUTES for TRUE DESIRE

every time complicating his "unwhole" attire

consumed with thoughts that feed his need

of feeling somthing other than him being empty

UNTRUTH is the light that dims

hiding reality of what really sleeps in him

longing to be awakened and dealt with.

(restructure this heart of mine. re-equip this mind's eye. allow me to see truth in my life. to know life as YOU designed.)

innocence stained with mistrusted acceptance

eyes of attraction/ admiration mistaken for definition

mistaken for emotional recognition/ mislead admiration

CHAOS filling all voids

security now believes

what is consistently being perceived

stained perceptions won't wash away

stained perceptions promise to stay

leaving NOTHING truly new

forever feeling used...

(dry rotten-ness)-

BROKEN TRUST

broken desire

broken relation

depleted introvert

back in to your own seeing

redesigned all your thinking

all that i observe is seen through broken eyes

responding with a broken smile

broken confidence changes my mind

every time- challenging my dreams

challenging my pride

challenging my strength and my design...

forgiveness brings life

forgiveness changes the mind

forgiveness transforms this preception

forgiveness brings forth this beautiful redemption place

awakening desire for life

for challenge

to be more than just ALIVE.

To STRIVE to CONQUER to FIGHT.

-khristen