Sunday, March 7, 2010

perceptions

WORDS CHALLENGING MY PURPOSE

REALITY TESTING MY FAITH

FEAR PROVOKING MY TRUST

YOURS AGAINST HIS

 

YOU MY GREATEST TEST OF LOVE AND HATE.

TAUGHT ME THINGS I DIDN’T APPRECIATE.

YOUR ARROWS DIRECTED TOWARDS MY EXISTENCE.

TAUGHT ME TO ACT WITH WISDOM AND RESISTANCE.

 

THE LOGIC THAT CAME FROM YOUR EXPERIENCE

PUSHED ME TO REACH FOR A CREATIVE ALLIANCE

THE PERCEPTIONS THAT YOU WERE ABOVE

PROVOKED ME TO ANGER AND THAT MUCH MORE TO LOVE

 

YOUR EYES OF SHAME THAT PEERED ON MY POSITION

GREW A DESIRE TO EARN YOUR RECOGNITION.

THE ANGER THAT YOU EXPRESSED

LASHED OPEN WOUNDS OF REPRESS.

 

WOUNDS THAT LONGED TO BE HEALED

WOUNDS WITH SCARS THAT FORBID ME TO FEEL

TO LIVE TO CRY

SCARS THAT SHOWED IN ALL AREAS OF MY LIFE

 

YOU MY GREATEST TEST THROUGH THIS

CHALLENGED ME TO NOT JUST SEEK TRUTH, BUT TO LIVE BY IT!

YOU SEE THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE

CREATIVITY IS MY GREATEST ALLIANCE.

LOVE POWERED MY RESISTANCE AND

HE NOT ONLY PURPOSED BUT ALSO DEFINED MY EXISTENCE.

 

PERCEPTIONS OF SHAME DIMINISHED IN THE MIDST OF EVIDENCE

RESPECT, HONOR, LOVE, AND HELP FROM MY NEW ALLEGIANCE.

RECOGNITIONS BORN TAUGHT US A NEW PERCEPTION

OF FORGIVENESS, HEALING, AND COMPLETE REDEMPTION

-KHRISTEN

PERFECTION


His unformed substance

Only one can see

But as he grows

I feel him in me

 

Though some believe

He’s not yet alive

I can feel him

Longing to survive

 

A child of God

The days were ordained

He gave his son

For mine to be saved

 

O' God thy thoughts

Make my child precious

With choices made

I can’t be anxious

 

I ask thee my Lord

For a wall of protection

To surround our child

That is made from your perfection

 

 

Khristen   1996

(my fifteen year old self)    

step up


tOO MUCH INSIDE

DON’T GET TOO CLOSE

i MAY JUST TELL YOU

wHAT I THINK

hOW I FEEL

wHO YOU ARE.

iT MAY RUB OFF

LIKE A DISEASE

bURNING TIL COMBUSTION OF OPINIONS AND DREAMS

lOOKING PAST YOUR OUTSIDE REPUTATION

sEEING ONLY (NAMASTE) hIS REFLECTION!

sPEAK, dANCE, dREAM, lOVE.

bITTER ENVY, sELFISH PRIDE

 HAVE NO PLACE IN THIS LIFE.

dON’T GET TO CLOSE WITH YOUR OFFENSE

 yOU MAY NOT RECOVER IF YOU... 

dIP INTO WHAT I FEEL

sURROUNDED BY WHAT I SEE

lONGING FOR MY NEEDS.

wHAT HOLDS YOU BACK

wHAT HOLDS YOU UP

wHAT HOLDS YOU NEAR

wHAT HOLDS...

-khristen