- the path

Wandering i stumbled down a path too steep to walk

The foundations beneath me shifting too fast to stop

Couldn't even look up to see what was ahead

Just watched my foot steps as they led...

Directing my ankles not to turn

This path is too fast to learn..my way down

Heart is racing, Loss of breath

Life and death lie in these steps...

Keeping balance, rhythm, and time

Making my way like it's mine

Holding fast to how far i've come

Unknowingly my next step was none

Slipping through the ground beneath

My weak knees give way to the sound of defeat

The jagged rock slicing through

Everything i thought i knew

Sliding down with no control

Cutting my hands as they grasp to slow...

Down this ride I didn't choose

This struggle with THIS PATH... i may lose.

Head over feet i tumble to the bottom

Broken and bruised...

Lifeless for a moment perhaps even longer

My being awakens in a sort of horror...

Disoriented completely with my position

Lying face down on cool ground in tears of submission

There is where my tears where left... 

On that ground -at the bottom -under all my mess.

My battered being began to stir

Thinking of the steps that deterred... my wandering

Frozen for a moment in fear...

How to keep me from this path... these tears...

In that moment You whispered in my ear

Stooping down to make Yourself so clear

You whispered words that redesigned

All that thinking... years of believing lies..

There on that ground is where i realized...

My wanderings were not my demise..

That path that led strait down... 

Was the quickest way for me to be found... by You.

Your truth covered me like a blanket 

Restoring my being like when it was created

This is Redemption. This grace. 

Your love that enveloped my shamed face.

Now I've found a beautiful place 

That birthed a new path, a new love, a new face.

Shining brightly for all to see...

Wondering how this new path will be....

Full of new life and curiosities and adventure

Standing on this path i find myself apprehensive

So knowledge i take and hide behind..

Learning every step, bend, and bind.

Longing to pick the lilies on the way..

My fear won't let me play...

Frozen at the foot of the path

Knowing all that i lack...

I want to enjoy when i walk down..

I want to play and listen to all the sounds...

The crickets the frogs the whispering trees...

I wanna skip and laugh and jump in the leaves...

I stand there dreaming of how it could be...

And You.. You stoop down and nudge me...

Go on.. have fun.. I made this for you!!!

I stand there not moving anxious before You!!

You see this time I don't wanna walk alone...

I was wondering if maybe you could send a friend...

Someone i can trust that will take my hand...

Someone that's strong hearted and brave...

That can have fun leading and will want to stay... with me

Along side of me... Testing the grounds ahead...

Ground that has never been tread.

Seeking out truth, joy, hope, and faith..

The unseen path for two to take.

I'll respect his timing and honor his word.

His spirit I'll nourish with gentle kindness 

His heart I'll guard with wisdom's perseverance 

His mind I'll cherish as that of Your own...

As You speak to Him of how and when to go.

Strait path true and pure. 

I'll keep to the path and endure.

Even if He decides to wander off.

I'll love my friend no matter the cost.. 

I'll keep to the path and keep him close

I'll keep to the path so he won't get lost.

Keep me Lord.Send him my way.Send him to stay.

Patience wrap us up in you.

Joy burn deep to get us through.

Bring us both to this path of light.

Please don't let us out of Your sight.

Teach us to trust and walk and play.

Teach us to stay.

Teach us fight when fighting is needed

Teach us peace in the midst of mess.

Take us.. Love us 

Teach us to love us and love u... completely. 

Something blankets my heart this day

Coverings of healings that penetrate

Deeper than the abbrasions of today

Stretching back to the "foundation" day

"Chaosday" might be it's name

The day these patterns were lain 

"Sick-cycleday" might better define

The day this torment started in my mind

This day was brought to my attention

By triggers of love, and expectation

Knowledge vs emotion battling for truth

Beautiful mediator calls a truce

Her name is wisdom always on time

Residing between my heart and my mind

She dips her words in to my soul 

(mind, will, and emotion that's what my soul holds)

She redirects my course of action

Teaches me surrender in practice

All these days i've struggled through 

Running so fast "trying" to "fix" what i knew

Hoping that God would just forgive and take it away 

Knowing He has the power to make it okay

Never realizing i was missing the key 

That un-ravels and dis-mantels these patterns of authority

Love i've known can always cover 

The multitude of deepest separations 

Yet my emotion seemed to twist the love my mind knew

To be something "dirty", something somehow "used"

This type of love holds the opposite "freeing" authority...

This love i find poorly imitating 

The feelings of wholeness, security, and justification.

The knowing that it's dealt with, it's FINISHED procreating! 

My running led me strait down 

Found myself at the bottom somehow

Found myself at the foot of a path

Found myself looking... still so blind

Found myself seeking, with no eyes

My feet stood still but my soul still ran

Pushing and fearing for a plan

Wisdom right there holding the key

Spoke to my running soul VERY clearly.

Patience, my dear, is the first step.

Without this love can not exist. 

How can love cover anything 

If you are too busy to stay.Too busy to wait. Too busy to SEE.

So i sit down at the foot of this path

Patience and wisdom hand in hand

Thought and emotion take their rest

In truth and purpose and HIS plan

I'll wait here til this process is done

I'll find my joy and keep my place

I'll stay entertained as I learn HIS pace.

I'll let HIM deal with my past.

While I just surrender those moments.

It's amazing how when i hand them to YOU

YOU heal me and make me new... 

I can't wait to walk again with this new soul

(this new mind, new will, new emotion my soul holds)

I will wait until YOU tell me when

I'm ready to get up and go again.

This path infront keeps me in rest 

Knowing my heart must be whole... to enjoy it

I know that You have given me a promise

Please finish what You have started -khristen